In less than 1 month i will be calling Chicago my hometown. Sadly enough this struck me as i was scrolling through Facebook as i saw "Gresham" Oregon as my place of residence. Soon enough i will change that to somewhere very new and foreign to me. The idea of a new start is exciting yet terrifying as i realize what that really means. It is going to take me out of the little orb i know as home and place me in a big city without the comforts of my family or friends.
This move is coming faster than even the stores put up holiday decor after thanksgiving! My mind is swirling with all the scary, exciting and new things that will be headed my way in the upcoming months. As the days count down till moving date on December 9th I want to keep focused on being in the moment. I want to be present in Gresham with everyone i love until that day comes. It's something i need to practice and i hope to carry this concept throughout my life.
I don't want to miss out on the here and now just because i am thinking about the future, and when the it comes i want to be glad i lived in the moment. Im deciding to give up on countdowns, because they don't allow you to be thankful for where you are in the present. It's time for me to love where im at, thank God he hasn't put me somewhere im not ready for, and be excited for where im headed. Im so incredibly nervous to call another place home but im learning that home is whatever you make it, not your zip code.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Inspiration
What inspires you? What makes you happy and fulfilled? These a major questions many of us take a lifetime to answer and will continue to be the source of what we put our time and effort into. This is a question that has been laid on my heart lately as i have faced a lot of discretion when attempting to answer it.
The answer i've found is that inspiration all stems from understanding what fulfills your heart in the deepest capacity. Although i don't act like it all the time for it it's the love that comes from God. Wordly things have proven to let me down far too many times and i have come to appreciate the unseen wonder of having a savior close by.
With this move coming in less than 1 month i am realizing the importance of relying on him alone to help guide me to my inspiration in love, job, and schooling. Granted beautiful scenery, a good run, a hug from someone i care about, all have their place in my life, with God together they formulate something to live for.
As i travel half way across the country i wonder if this is where god wants me? I feel like my answer comes from the inspiration and awe i have looking back on this past year and being able to thank him for all he has saved me from. He has guided me through many tough decisions and obstacles and for some reason a path is being laid out for me to move.
Whether it is my free will taking over or not he will teach me something regardless, and with trust will ultimately use it for my benefit. Im so grateful for where i am, the people i've met in Gresham and the people i have yet to meet in Chicago. My relationship, and the inspiration it's brought in my life so far.
Although new to this dating thing again i know i have been blessed with an amazing man who has integrity and treats me well. These things are from God and fulfill me in ways that worldly things can't. Im so happy to be writing again. this too brings me joy.
The answer i've found is that inspiration all stems from understanding what fulfills your heart in the deepest capacity. Although i don't act like it all the time for it it's the love that comes from God. Wordly things have proven to let me down far too many times and i have come to appreciate the unseen wonder of having a savior close by.
With this move coming in less than 1 month i am realizing the importance of relying on him alone to help guide me to my inspiration in love, job, and schooling. Granted beautiful scenery, a good run, a hug from someone i care about, all have their place in my life, with God together they formulate something to live for.
As i travel half way across the country i wonder if this is where god wants me? I feel like my answer comes from the inspiration and awe i have looking back on this past year and being able to thank him for all he has saved me from. He has guided me through many tough decisions and obstacles and for some reason a path is being laid out for me to move.
Whether it is my free will taking over or not he will teach me something regardless, and with trust will ultimately use it for my benefit. Im so grateful for where i am, the people i've met in Gresham and the people i have yet to meet in Chicago. My relationship, and the inspiration it's brought in my life so far.
Although new to this dating thing again i know i have been blessed with an amazing man who has integrity and treats me well. These things are from God and fulfill me in ways that worldly things can't. Im so happy to be writing again. this too brings me joy.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Life moves fast and im moving too
It's been awhile since i have gotten a chance to write down some of my thoughts and i have missed sharing my life with you all.
All of a sudden time seems to be moving at a rapid pace without any sign of slowing down. I am finishing up my fall term ar Mt. Hood community college, my family sold our house i have lived in for the past 17 years, i got a new job and oh yeah...im moving 2100 miles away!!!! I haven't wanted to tell this to anyone since this past year has been a series of let-downs and rerouting of my plans and priorities. I have a tendency to get an idea in my head and go for it until i achieve the desired result. The problem with this is i forget to take the time to ask God what his plans are and often learn my lesson the hard way.
There is a new adventure i believe God is leading me on right now and this one is much bigger than i thought i could handle. Sometimes he stretches us in capacities we didn't think we could do on our own. This venture is leading me to transfer colleges in the wintertime. In my search for where to go a school a school in the midwest caught my eye. It had exactly what i want to major in and in such a big city the opportunities seem more available than Gresham. This excites me but there are many obstacles and unanswered questions that i still have to figure out. The school is called Depaul and it's a smaller private school located in the heart of downtown Chicago. It has a program for P.R and advertising that focussed on the communications aspect instead of the business part of it. This is the first place i have found a school with everything i wanted but the expense of this "perfect" school still seems to be the thing standing in my way.
In hopes to save some money i am going to be transferring to a community college close by the city to save money and acquire residency before switching to Deapaul. As I write this im realizing that my move date is less than a month from today! It is all coming so fast. A job, living situation and classes all need to fall into their perspective spots and im praying that it will all work itself out in one way or another. Im both excited and extremely nervous to make this new jump in my life and trying to trust that i will be strong enough to make it on my own. I want to believe that i can meet amazing people to enrich my life in Chicago just as i have in Oregon. I am going to miss everyone so much but i ask that as i journey out into the big city you keep my travels and experiences in your prayers. Thank you for helping shape me into the person i am, i will miss my friends and family more than you know.
All of a sudden time seems to be moving at a rapid pace without any sign of slowing down. I am finishing up my fall term ar Mt. Hood community college, my family sold our house i have lived in for the past 17 years, i got a new job and oh yeah...im moving 2100 miles away!!!! I haven't wanted to tell this to anyone since this past year has been a series of let-downs and rerouting of my plans and priorities. I have a tendency to get an idea in my head and go for it until i achieve the desired result. The problem with this is i forget to take the time to ask God what his plans are and often learn my lesson the hard way.
There is a new adventure i believe God is leading me on right now and this one is much bigger than i thought i could handle. Sometimes he stretches us in capacities we didn't think we could do on our own. This venture is leading me to transfer colleges in the wintertime. In my search for where to go a school a school in the midwest caught my eye. It had exactly what i want to major in and in such a big city the opportunities seem more available than Gresham. This excites me but there are many obstacles and unanswered questions that i still have to figure out. The school is called Depaul and it's a smaller private school located in the heart of downtown Chicago. It has a program for P.R and advertising that focussed on the communications aspect instead of the business part of it. This is the first place i have found a school with everything i wanted but the expense of this "perfect" school still seems to be the thing standing in my way.
In hopes to save some money i am going to be transferring to a community college close by the city to save money and acquire residency before switching to Deapaul. As I write this im realizing that my move date is less than a month from today! It is all coming so fast. A job, living situation and classes all need to fall into their perspective spots and im praying that it will all work itself out in one way or another. Im both excited and extremely nervous to make this new jump in my life and trying to trust that i will be strong enough to make it on my own. I want to believe that i can meet amazing people to enrich my life in Chicago just as i have in Oregon. I am going to miss everyone so much but i ask that as i journey out into the big city you keep my travels and experiences in your prayers. Thank you for helping shape me into the person i am, i will miss my friends and family more than you know.
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