It's 12:40 and im an exhausted so this will be a short one. My eyes are slightly starting to rebel and close on their own and not even the hot coca or the sugar from the frosting i ate earlier is helping me stay awake..
I volunteered today at the festival of trees in Portland. I used to do it each year with my mom but as time went by i found myself being more and more busy around this time of year. With my move date 5 days away i am beginning to try and fit as many holiday traditions in this short time span as possible.
Tonight we made dinner, hung the ornaments on the tree, and decorated the famous sugar cookie.After baking they expanded and looked more like globs of dough than actual Christmas figures. Everything has happened so fast and the overwhelming fact that will be calling Chicago home in less than two weeks makes my mind spin. I thank God for the emotions he gave us, but i also wonder how many someone can feel at one time.
I find myself feeling excited, scared, apprehensive, and nervous all at once. i dont know how to make sense of all of them, and sometimes i feel like im making this huge life change on a whim. Im ready to see where it takes me, hopefully somewhere amazing where i can fully find joy in my surroundings but it's all in the journey. As i wind down my last days living at home i know that this is it. I love my parents, they have done so much for me, but i know that from this point on everything will change. The emotions begin to come back again and again with each new thing i think about. The long awaited move is finally here, and it's time to focus on what the future holds for me. There's no looking back now..I can't wait.
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