Happy Valentines Day to all my fellow hopelessly romantic girls out there! This day usually stirs up a mix of emotions in most people. Many love this season for the fact that no matter who's in your life every store comes out with delicious chocolates or tasty holiday treats. Man or not you can always rely on a good truffle to satisfy your cravings for just a moment. Right after the new year every stores hang up red and pink decor and heart shaped objects become sprinkled amongst the shelves.
Thinking back to where i was last year on this very same day it shows me how much can change and how grateful i am to God to be led where i am now. Last year i was going to school and working at a nice upscale restaurant. It was a flood of happy couples all flocking to celebrate this one day of love. Don't get me wrong, like i said earlier i love romance, yet i do have a little chip on my shoulder for this chalked up hallmark holiday. Taking one day where the pressure is on to "show" or buy someone things in order for them to feel loved is ridiculous. I enjoy any excuse to get someone a gift, or plan something creative but the cliche of dinner, jewelry, flowers and a box of candy is a little much. Instead i like to do things a little less traditionally and perhaps create this day into something more personal.
This year i had the pleasure of spending it with someone very dear to me. Since last year i have moved about three times between going to YWAM, back home for the summer and now residing in chicago. I have been taken on a crazy and fantastic journey that has led me to a place i never could imagine myself living before, yet love has made me unable to want to be anywhere but right where i am right now.
God led me to a a guy who i can truly be myself around and call my bestfriend. Thinking back on all i've been through since last February 14th i see how much God has shown me his unconditional love through my boyfriend. I get a little glimpse of God's love by the way i am loved by him. This Valentines day i was really shown what it's all about. We stayed in for dinner and did brunch instead. We traded hallmark cards and flowers for some homemade fondue and a night in. I got the most amazing present from him and mostly i felt loved. I felt loved for who i am and what i have to give right now, i love that.
Again, for all my hopeless romantic girls out there. Take a look at this day as a marker. think about where you were last year and then think to this year. You might notice that what was a struggle last year isn't anymore yet those problems have been replaced with new ones. The problems will always be there, im learning this on a daily basis. There is no green grass, just grass you put more time into fertalizing and you will never be happy until you notice the love all around you. Put down the truffles and boxes of chocolates and if you remember anything, remember that no matter what man you have in your life God is head over heels in love with you. I just feel like i got blessed beyond what i deserve with someone i can love and that shows me God's love through the way he is pacient, kind, funny and treats me better than i could ever ask. i am in awe everyday at the way my life has been heading and i wake up everyday wondering how i got so lucky. its a good feeling.
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