Life is all about choices. You may not end up making the right one, but at least you took a risk and made a choice. I have a incredibly hard time choosing for myself sometimes. By nature im a sensative person and i want to please others by my decisions. I think about every outcome possible along with the pros and cons. When making everyday decisions it's really about what you want and what will make you happy. Learning this has been really freeing as i am stepping into enjoying the little decisions set before me. Where you go, what you eat, and what you do that day are all trivial compared to how you make use of your time while your there. Spedning too long trying to make a simple decision can take the joy out of any siutation.
This season in my life im trying to roll with the punches. I want to allow myself to choose and possibly even choose the wrong thing. The fear of doing something wrong cannot prohibit me from ever making a decision in the future. With this in the back of my mind it will paralyze you from being able to see that life should be enjoyed and savored, not constantly alayzed. The little decisions for me usually seem to be the hardest. It's usually these that make me frustrated from not being decisive. Im coming to realize that indecisiveness is a product of not trusting yourself and loving yourself to know that it's okay if you fail. If you make the wrong choice or would have rather chose something else life will go on and you will get another chance. Thats the beauty and the joy of life. Your decisions do not define you. Right decisions should be celebrated becasue you trusted yourself, took a chance and succeeded. Wrong one's alike should be a lesson and a comfort that you took a risk and although it didn't work out like you thought nobody else made that decision for you. Big deicsions for me have usually come easier but when you have a lot on the line its easier to create anxiety and worry about making a faulty choice.
Indecision and anxiety block your mind from peacefully thinking about whats best for you. Even if you dont know the answer im trying to look inside my heart and know what I feel and hope it will work like i thought. Taking steps forward while blindly praying and hoping you dont choose wrong is scary yet empowering. You know that no matter what happens nobody chose a path for you. You understand that the consequences are your own doing but the joy and celebration is also yours.
Lately there have been a lot of things i've been challenged with. I've moved to Chicago from Oregon, it was a scary decision yet i feel very at home with my surroundings. Now im moving from Chicago after only five months of being here for the southern state of North Carolina. Im following my heart, the man i love and im able to finish up school in the process. Im young and people can give so much advice from their own experiences but in the end it's up to me. It's up to everyone to make their own choices, God gave us that gift. As i prepare to move farther away from the family i love to a new area and finish up school i hope my heart is ready for the outcome. Whatever the end result maybe at the end of the day i know i chose what i thought i should do for me at the time, i followed my heart and i took a leap of faith. Thats all any of us can do anymore.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
You know your getting a little emotional when..
Women have some crazy emotions sometimes. Lately i've felt like a very emotional side of myself. Most times i think women's emotions are a blessing in relationships becasue it brings sensativity and communication into them but sometimes they can be a little sparatic, a lot of up and downs and even funnier to look back on. For the sake of a good laugh i've complied a list of some funny things emotions can bring out in women sometimes. Although they may seem crazy they make us women who we are. read on; You know your getting too emotional when..
1.)You start using phrases like "I want YOU to want to" all the time.
2.)You get your feelings hurt about the smallest things
3.)Your hungrier than normal yet you feel like a cow
4.)You want strange combination of foods and "healthy" doesn't sound appitising
5.)You cry..A LOT
6.)You laugh, then cry some more
7.)Sweet and small gestures make you cry
8.)Funny cute things make you cry
9.) Basically you cry quite a bit
10.) Guys have a "what did i do now" look in their eye constantly
11.)You dont want to go to the guy but know you should (maybe thats a all the time feeling)
12.)When you want something, you're not messin around for example..pancakes ;)
13.)You can make a fight out of making breakfast or going to the store to get eggs
14.)You get really offended if someone asks if your at that time of the month
15.)Somehow the woman is always right, even if shes wrong she must be right at this particular time of the month
16.) Chocolate will defuse any tense situation
17.)Men should not try and fix things, just listen
18.) We like sympathy (lots of it) and not advice
19.) You want to be told your beautiful becasue you feel like a 2 ton barn
20.)Be pacient with us, we feel just a crazy
21.)Know that if you can stick with women through this and be okay, your relationship can survive a lot of things
22.)You have a heightened sense of your relationship at this point and are extra sensative to what make you feel special
23.) You want to feel special (especially when you feel cranky)
24.) Snacks work as bribes
25.) Guys remember.. pacientce and more pacientce.
Whew just a little funny list of things i've noticed can happen during certain times of the month. We don't like to feel crazy, and believe me I feel bad at times with the things i've gotten upset over. But the best part is when you can look back recognize where you've acted rediculous and wait to feel a little more emotionally normal again. Thanks guys for all you do and all you have to learn about living with us women. ;)
1.)You start using phrases like "I want YOU to want to" all the time.
2.)You get your feelings hurt about the smallest things
3.)Your hungrier than normal yet you feel like a cow
4.)You want strange combination of foods and "healthy" doesn't sound appitising
5.)You cry..A LOT
6.)You laugh, then cry some more
7.)Sweet and small gestures make you cry
8.)Funny cute things make you cry
9.) Basically you cry quite a bit
10.) Guys have a "what did i do now" look in their eye constantly
11.)You dont want to go to the guy but know you should (maybe thats a all the time feeling)
12.)When you want something, you're not messin around for example..pancakes ;)
13.)You can make a fight out of making breakfast or going to the store to get eggs
14.)You get really offended if someone asks if your at that time of the month
15.)Somehow the woman is always right, even if shes wrong she must be right at this particular time of the month
16.) Chocolate will defuse any tense situation
17.)Men should not try and fix things, just listen
18.) We like sympathy (lots of it) and not advice
19.) You want to be told your beautiful becasue you feel like a 2 ton barn
20.)Be pacient with us, we feel just a crazy
21.)Know that if you can stick with women through this and be okay, your relationship can survive a lot of things
22.)You have a heightened sense of your relationship at this point and are extra sensative to what make you feel special
23.) You want to feel special (especially when you feel cranky)
24.) Snacks work as bribes
25.) Guys remember.. pacientce and more pacientce.
Whew just a little funny list of things i've noticed can happen during certain times of the month. We don't like to feel crazy, and believe me I feel bad at times with the things i've gotten upset over. But the best part is when you can look back recognize where you've acted rediculous and wait to feel a little more emotionally normal again. Thanks guys for all you do and all you have to learn about living with us women. ;)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Let my words mean what i say
Confidence. What is it? How to you achieve it? There is a thin line in our world today between a confident self-assured woman and a self centered one. Many of us choose neither and instead dislike ourselves, we literally become our own worst enemy leading a life of sabotage rather than grace and growing.
Life is fun. My mom is a wise woman and she's given some great advice throughout the years. Im a worrier i worry about getting my heart broken, i worry that im not going to be happy, i worry that this or that wont work out and in the process i forget that.."life is fun." worrying never got me anywhere good yet i still manage to do it. Confidence is something i am finding i need a whole lot more of. Disliking yourself is like telling God he made a mistake. It's nice to know yet hard to sink in that I was crafted by the same God that made the heavens and the earth. he has a purpous for my life and he wants me to enjoy it. He wants me to ENJOY? Stopping the constant cycle of thinking to just relish in the idea that i dont have to worry is a foreign concept in itself. Trying to manage my own life i've found that im terrible at knowing what will truly make me happy. I try and live my life based on others opinions, and never believe that i am worth being fufilled, loved, persued and happy. But i am. The bible tells me i am. My obstacle is harnessing that confidence and working it into every intracle part of my life.
Once i can realize the great confidence i have been given in God, peace, self-control, trust, stead-fastness, and truth will come with it. Truth to see myself like God does and know that i am worthy of all the love in the world and a confidence to know that even if everyone in the world left or deserted me that i'd be okay becasue God would still be with me. I think this type of confidence can strengthen relationships becasue your not living in constant worry that something could go wrong. Life is a gamble, something can always go wrong and if you live your life avoiding these things you will never live your life at all. I've been finding that i've been trying to find confidence in all the wrong places. Your boyfriend cannot restore your confidence, being a good person cannot retore it, looking good on the outside will only mask it. Restoration comes from God. i want to find a quite self assurance that i am good enough to live a life people look at and wonder why i have so much peace. Peace comes when you know yourself and you know your calling and who God wants you to be. I dont know that yet, but as i figure it out i'd rather be in peace. I ask that i can seek out self confidence for myself and know myself to be more desisice in my decisions and have my words mean what i say. I want to be a great daughter, girlfriend, friend and christ follower but i can't if im my own worst enemy. It's time for some self love and God's truth to allow me to see that im loveable and worth a great life. I can't rely on others to give what i can only give myself. leading a life without confidence and constantly needing to be reassured is no way to live. It causes confusion and uncertanity. I want to have fun, enjoy life and know who i am. God help me as a journey to do so.
Life is fun. My mom is a wise woman and she's given some great advice throughout the years. Im a worrier i worry about getting my heart broken, i worry that im not going to be happy, i worry that this or that wont work out and in the process i forget that.."life is fun." worrying never got me anywhere good yet i still manage to do it. Confidence is something i am finding i need a whole lot more of. Disliking yourself is like telling God he made a mistake. It's nice to know yet hard to sink in that I was crafted by the same God that made the heavens and the earth. he has a purpous for my life and he wants me to enjoy it. He wants me to ENJOY? Stopping the constant cycle of thinking to just relish in the idea that i dont have to worry is a foreign concept in itself. Trying to manage my own life i've found that im terrible at knowing what will truly make me happy. I try and live my life based on others opinions, and never believe that i am worth being fufilled, loved, persued and happy. But i am. The bible tells me i am. My obstacle is harnessing that confidence and working it into every intracle part of my life.
Once i can realize the great confidence i have been given in God, peace, self-control, trust, stead-fastness, and truth will come with it. Truth to see myself like God does and know that i am worthy of all the love in the world and a confidence to know that even if everyone in the world left or deserted me that i'd be okay becasue God would still be with me. I think this type of confidence can strengthen relationships becasue your not living in constant worry that something could go wrong. Life is a gamble, something can always go wrong and if you live your life avoiding these things you will never live your life at all. I've been finding that i've been trying to find confidence in all the wrong places. Your boyfriend cannot restore your confidence, being a good person cannot retore it, looking good on the outside will only mask it. Restoration comes from God. i want to find a quite self assurance that i am good enough to live a life people look at and wonder why i have so much peace. Peace comes when you know yourself and you know your calling and who God wants you to be. I dont know that yet, but as i figure it out i'd rather be in peace. I ask that i can seek out self confidence for myself and know myself to be more desisice in my decisions and have my words mean what i say. I want to be a great daughter, girlfriend, friend and christ follower but i can't if im my own worst enemy. It's time for some self love and God's truth to allow me to see that im loveable and worth a great life. I can't rely on others to give what i can only give myself. leading a life without confidence and constantly needing to be reassured is no way to live. It causes confusion and uncertanity. I want to have fun, enjoy life and know who i am. God help me as a journey to do so.
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