Confidence. What is it? How to you achieve it? There is a thin line in our world today between a confident self-assured woman and a self centered one. Many of us choose neither and instead dislike ourselves, we literally become our own worst enemy leading a life of sabotage rather than grace and growing.
Life is fun. My mom is a wise woman and she's given some great advice throughout the years. Im a worrier i worry about getting my heart broken, i worry that im not going to be happy, i worry that this or that wont work out and in the process i forget that.."life is fun." worrying never got me anywhere good yet i still manage to do it. Confidence is something i am finding i need a whole lot more of. Disliking yourself is like telling God he made a mistake. It's nice to know yet hard to sink in that I was crafted by the same God that made the heavens and the earth. he has a purpous for my life and he wants me to enjoy it. He wants me to ENJOY? Stopping the constant cycle of thinking to just relish in the idea that i dont have to worry is a foreign concept in itself. Trying to manage my own life i've found that im terrible at knowing what will truly make me happy. I try and live my life based on others opinions, and never believe that i am worth being fufilled, loved, persued and happy. But i am. The bible tells me i am. My obstacle is harnessing that confidence and working it into every intracle part of my life.
Once i can realize the great confidence i have been given in God, peace, self-control, trust, stead-fastness, and truth will come with it. Truth to see myself like God does and know that i am worthy of all the love in the world and a confidence to know that even if everyone in the world left or deserted me that i'd be okay becasue God would still be with me. I think this type of confidence can strengthen relationships becasue your not living in constant worry that something could go wrong. Life is a gamble, something can always go wrong and if you live your life avoiding these things you will never live your life at all. I've been finding that i've been trying to find confidence in all the wrong places. Your boyfriend cannot restore your confidence, being a good person cannot retore it, looking good on the outside will only mask it. Restoration comes from God. i want to find a quite self assurance that i am good enough to live a life people look at and wonder why i have so much peace. Peace comes when you know yourself and you know your calling and who God wants you to be. I dont know that yet, but as i figure it out i'd rather be in peace. I ask that i can seek out self confidence for myself and know myself to be more desisice in my decisions and have my words mean what i say. I want to be a great daughter, girlfriend, friend and christ follower but i can't if im my own worst enemy. It's time for some self love and God's truth to allow me to see that im loveable and worth a great life. I can't rely on others to give what i can only give myself. leading a life without confidence and constantly needing to be reassured is no way to live. It causes confusion and uncertanity. I want to have fun, enjoy life and know who i am. God help me as a journey to do so.
No comments:
Post a Comment