Life's about making choices

Life is all about choices. You may not end up making the right one, but at least you took a risk and made a choice. I have a incredibly hard time choosing for myself sometimes. By nature im a sensative person and i want to please others by my decisions. I think about every outcome possible along with the pros and cons. When making everyday decisions it's really about what you want and what will make you happy. Learning this has been really freeing as i am stepping into enjoying the little decisions set before me. Where you go, what you eat, and what you do that day are all trivial compared to how you make use of your time while your there. Spedning too long trying to make a simple decision can take the joy out of any siutation.

This season in my life im trying to roll with the punches. I want to allow myself to choose and possibly even choose the wrong thing. The fear of doing something wrong cannot prohibit me from ever making a decision in the future. With this in the back of my mind it will paralyze you from being able to see that life should be enjoyed and savored, not constantly alayzed. The little decisions for me usually seem to be the hardest. It's usually these that make me frustrated from not being decisive. Im coming to realize that indecisiveness is a product of not trusting yourself and loving yourself to know that it's okay if you fail. If you make the wrong choice or would have rather chose something else life will go on and you will get another chance. Thats the beauty and the joy of life. Your decisions do not define you. Right decisions should be celebrated becasue you trusted yourself, took a chance and succeeded. Wrong one's alike should be a lesson and a comfort that you took a risk and although it didn't work out like you thought nobody else made that decision for you. Big deicsions for me have usually come easier but when you have a lot on the line its easier to create anxiety and worry about making a faulty choice.

Indecision and anxiety block your mind from peacefully thinking about whats best for you. Even if you dont know the answer im trying to look inside my heart and know what I feel and hope it will work like i thought. Taking steps forward while blindly praying and hoping you dont choose wrong is scary yet empowering. You know that no matter what happens nobody chose a path for you. You understand that the consequences are your own doing but the joy and celebration is also yours.

Lately there have been a lot of things i've been challenged with. I've moved to Chicago from Oregon, it was a scary decision yet i feel very at home with my surroundings. Now im moving from Chicago after only five months of being here for the southern state of North Carolina. Im following my heart, the man i love and im able to finish up school in the process. Im young and people can give so much advice from their own experiences but in the end it's up to me. It's up to everyone to make their own choices, God gave us that gift. As i prepare to move farther away from the family i love to a new area and finish up school i hope my heart is ready for the outcome. Whatever the end result maybe at the end of the day i know i chose what i thought i should do for me at the time, i followed my heart and i took a leap of faith. Thats all any of us can do anymore.